I have an anxiety disorder and clinical depression. These things have been a part of my life as long as I can remember, and despite the terrible and oft heard advice to "Ignore it and get on with your life", it persists still. I find myself most effective not when I'm ignoring my mental health but when I've actively made space for it. In college this was my design practice, but when design work became my source of income, associating it with my mental health became unhealthy. Now I find balance on two wheels.
This project came out of that space, During a period of time in late '18 early '19 when I found myself struggling to engage. I made a playlist of every cover of New Order's "Blue Monday" I could find and every Monday I would listen to the playlist and design an album cover for a version of the song. This created a scaffolding. I knew every Monday I would make a new album cover and even if I was sleepwalking through other parts of my life, Blue Mondays was an Anchor. It kept me from getting lost in the sea of my depression. I was able to find healthy coping mechanisms and after a time "get on with my life" which is of course, complete nonsense. to quote a different song "your choices are half chance, so are everybody else's"
I pride myself on high concept work. This project is intentionally low concept. I was blue, it was Monday. A common occurrence in the lives of depression sufferers is that folks in less or differently debilitating states of mind will offer advice without attempting to understand the scope of what depression is, and how it impacts it's sufferer's lives. Two lines in the song reflect an dry response to that advice. Find the Spotify playlist below.
I'm quite sure that you'll tell me just how I should feel today.
Tell me now, how should I feel?